natal e ano novo

Finalmente. Acho que agora vou conseguir escrever.

O Natal já acabou, quase tão rápido quanto esse ano. Eu lembro que contava os dias antes dele chegar, mas nunca chegava. Quando chegou passou tão rápido e nem foi tão legal assim. Foi legal, mas eu to meio blah, não consegui aproveitar tanto...

Peraí.

Uma semana antes eu fiz um estágio de assessoria de imprensa. Mais ou menos no terceiro dia de "trabalho" me deu uma super coisa, nunca me senti tão bem. Finalmente, FINALMENTE descobri o que quero ser "quando crescer". Aproveitei e não aproveitei. Aproveitei porque foi divertido: senti medo, adrenalina, independência, orgulho, paz... O melhor foi quando, depois do almoço, fui com meus "colegas de trabalho" comer um doce na rua e sentei na calçada pra tomar sol. Mesmo com um cano nojento pingando do meu lado e eu não falando nada eu nunca me senti tão feliz. Por outro lado, eu não aproveitei porque não sabia o que falar para os adultos e principalmente para as pessoas que eu passei a admirar.

Resolução do Ano Novo: fazer aula de teatro.

Voltando ao Natal; na verdade depois do Natal; hoje, dia 26.

Ainda penso em golden tipped lashes e descobri muito sobre isso (still not talking :p). To com complexo de 38 (eu juro que sou 36!!) e ganhei um iPod nano novo. Ou seja, o ano passou e não passou.

Que estranho, eu aproveito e não aproveito, o ano passa e o ano não passa.

Ufa, consegui.

xoxo*

you are home

I just finished watching 'Almost Famous' again. It's the best. I love it. Just like I do Walk the Line and Marie Antoinette.

About me during these past few days:
-Still quite obsessed with golden lashes and that person I mentioned before. Trying not to, but it's hard.
-Yesterday I had a breakdown, it felt good. I had been 'sober' for months. It felt good to relapse.
-Today I confessed stuff to my mother, she took it okay, she gave me advice, and all is fine.
-I've decided I will name my dog Penny Lane. I heard someone had the same idea, I just don't remember who.
-I've been craving highly addicting stuff I shouldn't crave.
-I am working on a 'persona' I will incarnate (man, who uses the word 'incarnate'?) during a few weeks, she seems like fun. I need suggestions for a nickname.

And once again, I have to go.

xoxo

i love janis joplin

Instead of giving a thousand excuses about my whereabouts, I'll go right to the point (I feel philosophical, so brace yourselves). The question is, what is the point? As I try my best to write and write, ignoring the annoying and incessant MSN dings, I don't know. I can't think...
I did some experimenting this weekend (and hell does this sound weird) and found out stuff about myself. I am mostly myself around people who don't know me. In other words, I am myself around strangers. Is it just me or is it supposed to be the other way around? Aren't I supposed to be mostly myself around friends? Around family? Around people who know my hear and soul?

I'm afraid I have to part... Hahah I've always wanted to say that!
I seriously can't write with PEOPLE walking around me...

xoxo*

PS: I love Janis Joplin. Listen to Me and Bobby McGee, Cry Baby, Mercedez Benz, and obviously, Summertime.

johnny and june

Finally bought it, with my onw money AND a I got a discount!! hahah

I finally found a movie to be compared with Marie Antoinette. Walk the Line is definitely it. I looove it.

I think I'm different, I feel different. I can't explain. I really hope it's happening and I must sound very confusing. I feel confused, I like rock and country and pop and folk and indie... And I like shopping and dancing and drinking and being a girl... And I hope everything's coming around.

I prefer not to think about this so much as not to ruin it.

I LOVE JOHNNY AND JUNE

xoxo*

extraordinary

Okay. Now I'm ready to talk about the weekend.
Not much REALLY happened, just so much in my head.
Some things that DID happen:
-Learned how to use a fire extinguisher
-Went skinny-dipping (hahah yeah I really did)
-Ran into my childhood best friend's parents and brother
-Heard the hugest tree fall right beside my beach house
-Spent two hours wrting my fucking internal assessment (and now I's a super expert on Marie Antoinette)
-Spent hours in the sun
-Some LL behaviour (heheh not telling)
-I admit I did think about golden tipped lashes quite a bit
-Thought about "refunding" snail shells by mail

Now the guilty pleasure:
Extraordinary by Mandy Moore

I was a bay tree
Quiet and unseen
I lived in stories but inside I kept a mystery
I was a starling
Nobody’s darling
Flying in perfect circles
Just for company

[Chorus]
And now I’m ready
And now I’m ready
And now I’m ready to be
Extraordinary

A midnight airplane
A window blowing
I know I am another sparkle in the sky
I shine on copper
Still undiscovered
But you must see me in the corner of your eye

[Chorus]

Waking up to a week of Sundays
I am my own parade
Stopping off at a sidewalk cafe
The wind is playing in the trees
Kicking up confetti leaves
Sings as if it’s all to say

[Chorus]



xoxo*

weekend

It turned out to be good for me! I'm not as thoughtful right now, but who knows, maybe that's what I needed... Here, a picture is worth a thousand words, so... A gazillion pictures are worth even more!

The beach in sepia
The beach in black and white
The bomb that went off in my room according to mom
MY NEW WHEEL!!! I LOOOOVE IT!
SPITFIRE'S THE BEST

The beach and my head
The little patch of natural exfoliants I found xD
Shell pickers... hahah
Under my umbrella ella ella eh eh eh... ugh hate that song
Havaianas - made in brasil (com S!!!!)

Fun in the car with my new flashlight xD
The beach and my dad's newspaper
The unlickiest fish in the world who happened to get caught by my sister
Oh how I love the beach!! hahah
I swear I was thinking about the blog... cof cof..!

The only thing I didn't have time to do was to go to my special place at the end of two beaches, a parking lot, another beach and a small forest.... Shell Beach. The most beautiful place in the whole world... And I still am thinking about golden tipped lashes.

xoxo*

off to the beach

off to the beach in like 30 minutes to get my mind off... things

eu to planning on taking many many artistics pictures (eisley inspiration heheh) e be really busy not to think.

be back later.

xoxo*