coisas podem acontecer

summer....
summer...
summer...
na verdade não é summer no brasil...

achei que várias coisas iam acontecer, algumas aconteceram e muitas outras também. hahah what an insight! achar que coisas vão acontecer, algumas acontecerem, algumas não, outras sim! and i make no sense at all mas acho que it fits me right now.
sim eu decidi várias coisas, vamos ver se elas acontecem. talvez aconteçam. talvez não. talvez outras coisas aconteçam. talvez não.
i don't know...

...which reminds me que eu assisti LOVE do cirque de soleil. loved it.

something - the beatles
Something in the way she moves
Attracts me like no other lover,
Something in the way she woos me.
I don't want to leave her now,
You know I believe and how.
Somewhere in her smile she knows
That I don't need no other lover.
Something in her style that shows me.
I don't want to leave her now,
You know I believe and how.
You're asking me will my love grow,
I don't know, I don't know.
You stick around now it may show,
I don't know, I don't know.
Something in the way she knows
And all I have to do is think of her,
Something in the things she shows me.
I don't want to leave her now,
You know I believe and how.

síndrome de férias

Reading other people's blogs makes me realize that everyone talks about their lives as if it was the most interesting thing in the world and it kind of is. It's weird how I'm losing my faith in humanity at the same time I'm falling in love with it... I mean, seriously, what makes one person more interesting to read than another? I seriously believe everyone is equally as interesting, but to different readers.
I wish Janis Joplin had a blog.
So since I'm so over my head in this love&hate relationship with life, then I'll talk about mine too, as if it was the most interesting thing in the world.

-Last weekend I went to Campos, it was a good change. I love traveling, even to the closest places, it finally feels like living. I like living.
-School, on the other hand, feels like dying. I wish it didn't but it's inevitable.
-Only one more day of school!!! I have no idea what I'll do in the holidays because I'm kind of a last minute person (kind of?? :D) but I might go someplace cold. And yay, I already have a list of holiday work to do... IB Extended Essay and English Internal Assessment plus THREE books. Okay I'm definitely NOT talking about school here. It makes me feel even deader.
-Yes, I'm not going to Switzerland and London anymore... Ugh I hate being a last minute person.
-Good news: I'm finally getting over my "bad phase". I think. Oh my I should really check myself into rehab. DON'T ANSWER THE PHONE! And yes, I should write a book about it.
-I got two Joss Stone cds. The first and the last. I like the first better but yeah she's great and I LOVE my new music phase.
-I don't want to give everything away, but I might be moving into a new... room. Some decorating ideas involve hippie 'door curtains' and the 70's theme.
-I watched some really good movies... "Iron Jawed Angels" and "Wristcutters: a love story". Oh and "Walk the Line" and "Almost Famous" AGAIN.
- Oh this is really strange but I actually found out famous people can be pretty normal. At Campos I had lunch and dinner with this actress and she's really normal AND funny. Okay, I'll admit they are a bit more interesting... Penny Lane was right! Hahah I'm being pulled into the dark side....
-Currently listening to: Jimi Hendrix, Led Zeppelin, Joss Stone, and one song by Social Distortion that is actually not Janis' as I first thought, "Ball and Chain".

So yeah, I'm posting because I have nothing better to do. I just got home from my almost last final (which I probably failed since it was Physics), I've already played the guitar, I've already stolen my sister's Diabolo for like an hour (and yes, those things ARE addicting), I've already eaten and oh I made a promise that I won't turn into a compulsive eater this vacation! and I'm supposed to look for holiday activities according to my mother, but I'm not on very good terms with her right now, so... Yes, I'm posting.

Which makes me realize how lame it is for everyone to think so highly of their lives. Which is what makes it interesting, since everyone's essentially the same and life is absurd for everyone. Even for famous people, it's just that their lives are absurdly cool. Yeah, the holidays are already driving me crazy, I sound like a girl from my class!

I really should check myself into a mental clinic of some sort.

só isso.

Ás vezes eu só quero tocar meu violão. Mais nada.
Nem quero tocar direito, tocar um solo ou um riff complicado, mas só quero tocar.
Quero só pensar no momento; no som, na textura das cordas, no conforto da madeira, e no cheiro do instrumento.
Todo o resto parece MUITO MAIS, MAIS DEMAIS em minhas mãos. Parece que eu não vou dar conta.
Quem me vê pensa que eu consigo dar conta de tudo, que eu sou eficiente, que eu sou focada e etc. Mas eu também sou humana e não dou conta de tudo não!
Muitas vezes, eu só quero tocar meu violão.

THE SUCKIEST ENTRY EVER POSTED

Overwhelmed
Overworked
Overstressed
Overannoyed
Overtired
Overprotected
Overreacted
Overpunished
Overmelancholic
Overfedup
Overanxious
Wishing it was all over
Counting the days till it's over
And very very FASDJFASFH overall.

Grande Pequena

Um cappuccino amargo
Com constantes adoçantes
Uma mordida queijuda
De queijo quente na chapa

Em uma tarde nublada
Fria, mas ensolarada
Frente a frente, e o barulho da estrada

Depois da escola
De outra recuperação
Com rugas na testa, calor no corpo
Mas nenhuma
Preocupação

Grande demais para a cadeira
Mas para o mundo, muito pequena
Com cem reais no bolso
E zero na carteira

Descobri o meu passado
Garanti algum futuro
Mais perto, mais certo
Mais completo, mais inteiro

Voltei pra casa e peguei meu violão
Toquei pros mortos, para os vivos, para
A solidão

Grande demais para a cadeira
Mas para o mundo, muito pequena
Com cem reais no bolso
E zero na carteira

today in a few words

Open curtains...

MAC
You look a little morose, honey.
What’s eating you?
JUNO
I’m losing my faith in humanity.
MAC
Think you can narrow it down for me?

Close curtains...

Kozmic Blues - Janis Joplin

Time keeps moving on,
Friends they turn away,
Lordy Lord.
Well, I keep moving on
But I never found out why
I keep pushing so hard a dream,
I keep trying to make it right
Through another lonely day.

Whoa — don't discover it lasts ...
Honey, time keeps a-moving on, hey yeah, yeah yeah.
Well, I'm twenty-five years older now
So I know it can't be right
And I'm no better baby and I can't help you no more
Than I did when I was just a girl.
Yeah!

But it don't make no difference baby, no, no,
'Cause I know that I could always try.
There's a fire inside of everyone of us, huh-uh,
I'm gonna need it now,
I'm gonna hold it yeah,
I'm gonna use it till the day I die.

Don't, honey, don't you expect any answers, dear,
Ah, I know they don't come with age, no, no, no, no.
Hey, I ain't never gonna love you any better baby
'Cause I'm never gonna love you right
So you better take it now, I said right yes now, yeah.

But it don't make no difference baby, no, no,
'Cause I know that I could always try.
There's a fire inside of everyone of us, huh-uh,
I'm gonna need it now,
I'm gonna use it yeah,
I'm gonna hold it till the day I die.

Don't make no difference babe, no, no, no,
Honey, I hate to be the one.
I said you're gonna live your life
And you're gonna love, love, love your life.
I'm gonna need it now,
I'm gonna hold it yeah,
I'm gonna use it, say, whoa ...

Don't make no difference, baby, no, no, no,
Honey, I hate, I hate to be the one.
I said every time you're gonna wanna love somebody,
Every time you're gonna wanna need somebody,
You're gonna wanna turn around, I'm gonna be there.
No no no no no, no no no no no, no no no no.

When you're gonna put out your hand,
All your want is some kind of lovin' man,
He ain't gonna be there, I said, not here.
No no no no, no no no no, no no no no,
No no no, no no no, no no no no,
No no no no, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa
Whoa, wah wah, whoa,
Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa
Honey when I wanna reach out my hand
I said darling all I ever wanted
Was for you to understand me now — whoa
Ah baby, I wanna sing about me Lord, honey, every day yeah!